Darling, It’s Your Time Now

As I sit here in a cafe, just round the corner, sipping slowly on an Americano, whilst you are writing and recording a song with a music label that people will most definitely know, I’m reflecting. I didn’t stay for the songwriting session. It wasn’t me who was needed. It was you. And as hard as that was … to let go and let you do your thing … it made me realise that this is your time now.

I’m no longer needed to hold your hand or make decisions for you. You don’t need me to guide you to make your own way. You’ve grown and have your own amazing talents that people want to explore and develop … people that don’t want me there … they want you … they want my daughter … my little girl who is very much grown up now … and, whilst I’m so very proud of you, I’m also a little tearful as I feel, I don’t know … surplus, I guess. What is my role?

As I sat and watched you hold your own in conversation with the producers … outlining your loves and ideas … I sat there with very little to say and very little to add (very unlike me, I must admit!). My views wouldn’t mean anything, anyway … I really felt like the mum. I think the term ‘Mumager’ was mentioned, bandied about … the Mum Manager … but that was never my dream … I never wanted to live my dreams through my children … I had my own.

This isn’t a feel sorry for the mum post but it is certainly one of those moments that has just stopped me. Who am I now? Where do I fit in? Am I allowed to still have dreams and aspirations of my own? Or should I have lived my dreams, achieved what I wanted to achieve? Is it time for me to now hand over the gauntlet and live dreaming of what I’m yet to do, yet to be?

It’s bizarre, though, as I’m not sure I’ve yet become who I thought I would but it feels like time is running out … does that make sense? It really is your turn now and whilst I couldn’t be happier for you … you deserve the world … I’m not sure what I’m needed to do … I’ll support you and encourage but you don’t need it, darling … you know exactly what to do and, with or without my words, you’ll go show the world just how incredible you are because you’ve always had that strength …

… I’ve always known that one day you would be doing exactly what you are doing now … you’ve always had such a sparkle that’s infectious. I’m thrilled that you’re my girl with such dreams … and it’s amazing that they are finally becoming a reality … go wow them … go live them … make them your life, beautiful, and I promise to be here and support you as you have the best journey ever … I couldn’t be prouder … it really is your time now, darling … just saying.

Keep Calm and Carry On Linking Sunday
Pink Pear Bear

  1. Sounds like very exciting things are happening for your daughter but what ever happens you’ll always be her mum. It sounds from this post that you have a very strong bind and so nothing will ever come between that. So this is your goldrn opportunity for you to do what you want to do too, and she will always know where you are if she needs you πŸ™‚


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  2. What a beautiful yet bittersweet post. Sounds like there are very exciting moments ahead on the journey for your daughter and so glad that her dreams are becoming a reality but it must feel a little unnerving having to work out what your role is now and what lies ahead for you. Wishing you both all the very best for the journey ahead x #triballove

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  3. Such a heartfelt, honest post. It made me catch my breath as it’s one of the things I’m dreading the most as my girls grow up – learning to let go. We spend years teaching and training our children so that they will be ready for the big wide world, but when it is their time to explore it, we wish we could keep them forever. I wish your daughter every success. #bloggerclubuk

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  4. This is so beautiful Helen! Very emotional! How amazing that she is now able to do what she has always dreamed. I would love this for my daughters too. I wish her all the best in this new journey and congratulations to you for being a wonderful mother. You will need to let us know when the album is out! πŸ˜‰ Thanks so much for sharing this at #KCACOLS. I would love to see you again tomorrow, πŸ™‚ xx

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    1. Oh thank you, Franca – such a mix of emotions going on at the moment and yes of course it’s amazing for my daughter but arghhh all the letting go emotions are tough! Thank you for your lovely comment xx

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  5. This is lovely and left a lump in my throat – you must be so proud of her and what an amazing job you have done. Encouraging your daughter to reach for the stars and be the person she wants to be – she is very lucky to have you. #Marvmondays #kcacols

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  6. Congrats to your daughter – she sounds like a determined & talented young lady. You might feel like she doesn’t need you but she still does. You’re silent support will be a huge boost for her. Thanks so much for joining us at #BloggerClubUK

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